themechanicaldryad:

Not one of the awesome heroines that face dragons and demons without batting an eye. I don’t feel like one of those heroines that knows who she is and what she wants and what’s going on. I don’t feel like a heroine who knows what to do in any given situation or is creative enough to figure it out.

I feel like one of those terminally bewildered heroines that keeps getting tossed from one bizarre situation to the next. Who has no idea what the hell is going on, or how to deal with it, and who is never sure what to do next. Just an average girl who manages to scrape by.

I hope one day, I can be like an awesome heroine. I hope I can be confident, smart, creative, and know what to do. Right now, I think my best qualities are that I’m adaptable, empathetic, and kind. Sometimes I wonder if I’m actually too empathetic, though. And while I’m adaptable, I think I deal really weirdly with new situations at first. But I feel kind of like eventually I’ll have experienced most things and I’ll be able to deal with situations as they come up. One day, I will be a more confident, prepared person. One day, things will be better. I will be better.

I’m going to go fail at academia now. Good morning, strange new world.

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